I walked down this path.
Sat in this bench.
And looked at this.
I contemplated and analyzed my current point in life.
I don't know whats been wrong with my lately. In the mornings I don't want to get up. I can't think of one thing that makes me want to jump up and seize the day. My senses lack invigoration. I feel subdued, mundane, and bored. Numb. I've never felt this way before for this long.
And all I could do was really pray. Pray for answers. Pray to be at peace with pending decisions. I prayed for the burden of sadness to go away. I prayed for the pain to go away. I prayed for clarity.
I took an online emotional wellness test administered by the school. The results? Depression.
I am scared.